Lift up your eye to Heaven

The weather has become warm, ...this 2 days were damn hot... and tonight as well... hot... and I need to open my windows, and the door of my room as well..... I'm taking the very high risk to put myself into an attack of enemy-mosquito. Oh God~ I pray that you're cooling down the temperature now.....

Today is almost reach to its end... but there's something that still remain so clear in my mind since this afternoon, I guess, it's simply meant to no other meaning, perhaps I was just too sensitive for this times. "You Play me ah?" ... NO, I didn't... (never ever). I wish I could tell...... Didn't know why, it has somehow brought me to a reason. Well, it's just a very little thing lah... hey man, you're too much already. Okay, come on, be fine. Do not think too much~

So hot, swimming again tonight.....
Very Glad to receive a SMS tonight.... thanks :) ....

Maturity of mind

Since I was small, my mom used to tell me that when I laid on the bed to sleep, if I cross up my arms, and put my hands to my heart, I would make a nightmare. Was this a fairy tale? No... ? yes...? and it happened to me last night... it was this morning, 2-3 hours before the alarm was sounded. I was in a fear suddenly, nightmare, shivering a little... and I found my arms cross up, and my hands on my heart... but I couldn't remember the dream. Anyway, it recalled a little memory about something happened in the church I previously attended in the past. It reminded me the spiritual war. Oh God~ indeed, I did not want to think that. Sleeping again~ thanks God!

Always like that, when I come back to work after a day off, it will be lots of task(s) right there waiting me to cover back and to complete. What I can say is, today was totally exhausted. Very busy... tasks were accumulated one after one, in fact, design work was quite an excited job. When I did well, I found the joy of satisfaction. But when I couldn't do better work, I would be depressed, because I just felt that I unable to be a helpful person/colleague to my colleague/friend. Anyway, I know why I was so nervous today. I was desperately rushing on my task(s). Taking the race with something that you would never ever able to win to its age, which is TIME.

To clear up my stuffy head, I decided to go down to swim... wow... great... felt like swam more and more round... but I couldn't do that, else I would have no extra time to do some other thing(s). And nighttime is always very fast to reach the another bright morning... what I'm trying to say here is, Time rolls on very fast. :-)

Hair Brush, what is this? Okay, I've just got this yesterday morning, a beautician friend, who is also a sister in Christ, promoted me this item, a hair-tool. Come on, I don't use this thing lah! Usually I just use my hands to make up my hairstyle. No must use it for the good sake of our hair to grow healthy. Haha... is it? okay, it's not so expensive to me. I bought it yesterday morning, dealt! Anyway, I felt it good when I used it to comb my hair, oh no, massaging my hair and the scalp. Okay lah.

Well, I was very happy tonight... you know what, when you've sowed something for a while, and finally you reaped the outcome in positive way. Then, you would know that it's worth to wait. And you would also know that what is it called "sweet after bitter". Chatting with a good friend tonight, we've some conversation related to relationship... okay, hmm... there's an advise. But We always anticipate and believe that there's a better tomorrow. Believe what you sense, trust what you see, be an understanding people. .... we can't just judge by what we see, but sometimes we need time to be the judge.

Happy Day

Day off~
Resting at home.
I couldn't believe that I woke up late this morning. Long ago I hadn't wakened up at this hour. It's after 10am. Well, I think, I was too tired last night after having a night swim. By the way, I was very happy at the time to sleep last night because my anticipation was at last come true~ :-) Thanks God!

Though it's public holiday today, but it's none of my business, our company has no holiday for today, anyway, it's my day off. I stayed at home, go nowhere, but doing lots of stuff in the house, cleaning room, washing lots of clothes, sheet, pillow covers, blanket, sleeping bag... table fan... ironing T-Shirts...... haha... it's really like going through a big project.

I was about to change my blog skin, but it'll take up some time, so I just forget about it for some while. Going on my reading, however, I still haven't finished it yet. Some more book(s) are queuing there on my table and in my tiny bookshelf. ...... time, is a restriction.

Since I couldn't fix my shoe, so I went out to a cobbler, thanks God! He was still there, because the hour was close to sunset, and he told me it would take about 10 minutes for the service. Then, I walked to "Pasar Malam", bought myself some fruit(s) & drink... and then, dinner, ...... finally back to the cobbler, waited for a while, then, everything done. Thanks God~ It looks like a new one. haha... and costs me RM13.00. okay. thanks~

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Be Firm

Sleepless... woke up early, an unhappy dream was awakened me, ..... as normal I attended the Sunday Church Service this morning, it has become a habit to me, not much grow, and in an uncertainty...... What's the difference between a Christian and a non-Christian? They say, they're a Christian, they go to church every Sunday, they say, they're a believer of Jesus,..... they like to hear of the inspiring & touching story/preaching... but... what about the attitude towards their belief?...... Sometimes I myself just too tired of hearing the sermon that was preached so well, and it looked like lots of people were so moved and inspired. .... but at the other side, it was just a "3 minutes hot degree"(short-lived enthusiasm) reaction. And sometimes, when I see that there's not much difference with what a Christian behave as compared to a non-Christian doing, it's really upset me. But I know for sure that I'm not qualify to say this, I'm not perfect as well, I was also doing wrong thing(s) sometimes... God will judge that all. Really need His mercy. Just wondering, today Are we Christian too pride of being a Christian? ...... But we did very little things for Him.
...... we just too weak to call ourself a Christian. okay... no complaining please.!

A bit tired today...... felt sleepy in the Church......
During my working hour, I was waiting for the time to get off, really tired. ... After work, went home... bath ... dinner... rest... okay, actually it was a joke lah. But... this times no excuse already... went down to swim with 2 house-mates. Well, anyway, I enjoyed swimming tonight... just didn't count how many round I swam. But refreshed my mind. Thanks God~ Anyway, please bear in mind, next times please do not simply make a joke, must make a joke in a very right time. haha... Anyway, Thanks God~ it did not delay my time to send out my SMS. :-)

Looking at the beautiful scene(s)

Thing happened as last night, a message was dropped into my mobile again after midnight, it's from my superior. +.+ ... not much interest... it's about the funeral matter again. This wasn't the expected one... ...

Tired to do the tasks that related to the funeral, not many personnel is going, thus, they(company) need to do something, ... came out notice... everyone must go as requested, but those with the 3 mentioned reasons by the company can be an exception. (In Chinese Community, mostly they are cautious about their custom, & tradition.) But do you think that everyone will be in agreement on it? sorry... and now funny is, they said, transport will be provided, but now the fact is, the staff will need to travel themselves by fetching others too. Anyway, I just thanked God, I will not go. Directly I told my superior and my boss, and of course, my reason was accepted . Okay, fine, not need to talk too much about this.

What was attracted me actually? I watched again the DVD movie, "Secret", but I just watched the beginning part only... I've got not enough time (perhaps it's not the right time to watch it tonight), haha... it was just so romantic... so warm... okay, movie is just only a movie. Make a dream for a while won't be harmful to our mind, isn't it? fine. Go ahead for your dream. haha...

Chemistry in between girl and boy is just so amazing, so sweet, indescribable, crazy... but sometimes it's just too complicated...... and we carefully dare to have a touch on it, and is getting even deeper and deeper... and we may not even know what is happening... how to get out of it, when there's a pain that hurt you so much, it's just so tough, and so hard to get up again...... and no one really anticipates that to happen... we are human being, and many times, perhaps we may be just so vulnerable...... and normally, at that moment it refines us so much, and we become more stronger than before...... "why" is not the reason to lose our heart again and again, and totally put ourself down, but to stand up again, look for the goodness that is worthwhile to run for......

Rationalism

I guess my superior was really really so tension, even after mid-night, and the time before the sun was risen, there were already two SMS dropped into my mobile, it's telling me what's the task to do/to follow up the next morning in the office. Actually, the SMS did bother my sleep, but it's just fine, I wouldn't blame her, something unhappy happened in her family-grandma passed away. And supposed I should turn off my mobile at the time I went to bed. but, why have I not turned off my mobile?

I really don't like the policy, the style, the culture of this company... I really hate the unreasonable duty before and after the office hour, so ridiculous, but since I am still working there, I really need to be patient a little bit more. Am I not? And likewise, what does it mean "compulsory"? Isn't it a MUST. In fact, I was thinking to go for the funeral service, but due to the reasons of distance & time, I decided not to go. Then, it was something coming to us again, somebody was complaining at us not attending the funeral service, said that we should go.
OK, but what is wrong that we don't go? ...

Evening time, my superior called me up, telling that everyone works in the company must attend the funeral service, it is compulsory! ...... some more, asked me to do notice & email, and announced to everyone... oh ...oh... but why me? why me the one is asked to do this? Some other people may not be happy to hear about this...... and I may be blamed by somebody else anytime. Can't imagine... it's just so WEIRD!
I asked my house-mates tonight... they also thought of the same way. Go is better, but shouldn't be done in a way that forcing others to go for the funeral.
You know what, we've church service on Sunday, I'd rather go to church. Don't say me, heartless and no sympathy.

Do Not Simply Quit

I've got no idea why was I waking up so early in the morning recently. Am I getting older? Is this the reason? Almost exceeding 1 hour before the alarm began to sound. And usually I was forced to wake up at this time, because I couldn't fall sleep anymore. Sucks! ...... anyway, thank God! I've got more time to have my reading in the morning. Or just sitting there, enjoying the music... be silent.

And everyday, there's always hope & love. Must believe it, and live a healthy life. In God I put my trust, pursuing my target with a strong faith. Do not Simply quit. ... That's the way.

Escaping myself to a paradise from the current busyness of work would be the best idea to ease my mind I think. But the fact is, I need to wait until the coming month... yeah... will soon be flying back to hometown. Anyway, life is still busy. Well, I think it is just the way how you think, so we must enjoy our current life, and the current process ... if we are not enjoy, then, things may turn out to be so oppressive, and it will rather be more tired and tired in every step we move. Therefore, we better do something ...

Something upset me this afternoon, walking in the bookstore with a complicated mind after my lunch, it's just like my mind has gone to somewhere else, like I lost myself somewhere in the midst of a junction...... but I was not. Anyway, at the edge of my mind, there's still a hope, Okay. Fine!

It was so glad and so good to do good to other, but what if the response is brittle, or ...etcs. Anyway, it's just a lesson of life, Jesus did a good example, love is amazing, love is so good. We do good not for reward(s). But Love. Because Love has no condition. ......

It was so sorry to receive a SMS from my superior tonight, telling that her grandma was just passed away. . . God bless.... May God remember you all...

Moving On

Went to bed early last night... but my rest was not enough... still I felt tired but better.

Seeing that the people on duty was catching the wild dog(s) on the way while I was reaching to the train station... oh no... groaning sound... God.. I didn't want to hear... sadly to watch on this... because the dog(s) looked cute... "What are they going to do with this animal?" Sympathy was fighting for innocent being. People around was sympathetically staring at this cruel scene, a child was crying while he saw it... and her mom said, it's okay, it's dog only. dog only??? God... Didn't want to think about it.

It has brought me a lot of stuff to handle for just only two days I didn't go to the office. Oh God~~ This was the consequence?... okay, relax... relax... but it's not enough. I needed to go somewhere else, which is our headquarter today, it was excited I think, it's not only for the sake of my job... but some other matter. Anyway, it's just another "BUT" turned on the "disappointment" melody-sad. So... okay, fine... it's okay. God works everything for GOOD. Faith on~~

The journey home is a long way, so it was around 9 something in the evening when I reached home. TIRED... exposed to rain... slightly headache tonight... after bathed, & dinner, it was around 10pm. Anyway, I thanked God that I've got the chance to go on my reading of the book of PRAYER-Does it make any difference?

Life is Good~ Keep on Your efforts!

Sick Leave... but It Wasn't a Tough Day.

Sick Leave.

What was happening recently? It seemed that the weather was not in a happy mood, it was always raining. And sometimes, the sun came out again for a while, then, the sky began to overcast suddenly... and rain again.

The weather was so fickle in recent days, it's not nice to the living people, and I myself have failed to take care of myself, the virus fought me back, and I was defeated, SICK. I thought I would be fine today. Though I took sick leave, and didn't go to work, but I'm still not feeling well, and even received SMS from my boss twice this morning and afternoon for an instruction and conference requesting. Oh God~ Come on, give me a breathe. Thank God! It was fine after I replied him that I was sick and took MC today. Anyway, I thanked God that I managed to get the work(s) on my schedule done. Thanks God~

It was a busy & tired day, I gotta rest early tonight... cloudy mind...
God bless...

Busy + Excited

Day off~
However, I was quite busy the whole day...
Rainy days... part of my clothes are still hanging out there at the balcony.
Making a lot of calls this afternoon... I can't just rely on others' comments and opinions. However, I can work it independently in either way. Thanks God~
God~ I thought it was okay to me tonight, but I was surprisingly getting to know that it was 38°C shown in the thermometer, the doctor told me after taking it out from my mouth.
Fever~

Renew Your Mind

My eyes very tired... It could be because of facing to the monitor so often I think.
Before I stepped into the sanctuary, I've already heard of the song, "How Great Is Our God" was singing out there. What's a wonderful song!! ... this worship team from Grace Methodist Church, Singapore did very well this morning, Thanks God!

Mission Month, "Reach One More For Jesus (Acts 1:8)" was the topic preached in this morning... Gospel... Have you kept it in your pocket?......

I felt good in this morning, naturally I sent SMS to a friend for a support. We need friend to support us, and we do need to support them.

Life was very busy... really need a breathe. Though tired, with a heavy head, I went down to swim tonight after coming back from work. REFRESHINGLY renewing my mind.

I like one of the song that was being sung this morning, "Here I am, at your feet....." But I couldn't find it on the internet. Perhaps I need to ask from the worship team somehow.

God was approaching me.

I was very tired today though, but I still went to the Undignified Worship Concert, anyway, my friends couldn't come. Okay.....

It was really amazing, I came here... through the praise & worship.... the prayers... God tried to get me back closer to Him. Together with everyone, I closed my eyes, bowed my head down... we prayed to God... then, I knew what it called "We pray to God via silent".

I felt really calm in mind, I was really comfortable, I asked for forgiveness, turned to God, I didn't need to think too much like what it came to me in my daily life, my stress, my worries, my sadness, my uncertainty ... were all released. Worshiping God in peace, and enjoyed that time with Him like face to face. Silently I asked myself why should I too care about something that it seemed to be less possible to happen...... and God soothed me...

I've learned a word tonight, "Oxymoron"- Something that does not make sense.

Undignified Worship Concert

Drummer for Christ

Prayers

Supplications - by Worship Team, Grace Methodist Church, Singapore.

Silent Meditation

Sermon...

En Theos

Relax, man.

Today I woke up early, but I didn't go to swim. I just wanted to stay back, I have had some reading, & enjoyed the music with my breakfast after taking shower. I was quite enjoyed having that moment before I went out to work. Yeah~~

Today was damned busy at work, email has gradually become very popular within the office. Sometimes it just sucks, because too much email(s) needed to be read and replied. I just think that it would bother me so much as some of it were none of my business. So I just simply read through it without spending too much time on it.

Went out tonight, met my friend and his future wife (very soon), I got his wedding dinner invitation card eventually, and attached with one of his selected wedding photo, wow... so nice & beautiful, it was so glad to get one. Thanks! And it was so glad to see their tiny wedding photo booklet. Wonderful...

In fact, I was the protagonist tonight. haha... met a few friends of my friend, and friend of my friend's friend, and the brother's friend of my friend's friend. haha... seemed like a bit complicated here. Anyway, I enjoyed being there tonight though I came with the main purpose of dealing with my transaction, I heard some funny things there in the conversations. It was a life lesson, it was funny joke but true story, it was sad too, it was open-minded too... it was an amazing experience also... haha... Glad~~

Understanding

I felt calm tonight.
And I've learned one thing, do not think only at a corner side,
Be Understanding of other willingly & honestly
and be strong, be brave, show your concerns, care & love
to the people around you...
Give SUPPORT to him/her!!

O God, may Your love fills those who need it fully.

God of This City

God Of This City - Chris Tomlin

You're the God of this city
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You Are

Bridge:
For there is no one like our God
There is no one like our God

Chorus 1:
Greater things have yet to come
Great things are still to be done
In this city
Greater things are still to come
And greater things are still to be done here

Verse 2:
You're the Lord of Creation
The Creator of all things
You're the King above all Kings
You Are

You're the strength in our weakness
You're the love to the broken
You're the joy in the sadness
You Are

Chorus 2:
Greater things have yet to come
Great things are still to be done
In this city
Where glory shines from hearts alive
With praise for you and love for you
In this city

Greater things have yet to come
Great things are still to be done
In this city
Greater things are still to come
And greater things are still to be done here


* While I was waking up this morning... and yesterday morning when I came across to this song again... it reminded me that who is the GOD, who is controlling everything. The powerful God, He's my GOD.

Trustworthiness & Honesty

Oh God~ sleepless..... I was liked an insomniac...
I was damned tired today..... my eyes always wanted to close up... & my eye-bags were getting deeper :-( I couldn't think too much already... when I talked to others, it was just so tiring my voices presented. My head seemed like so heavy... almost fainted if I were too careless to bear... to make the matter worse, was that, the conversation was suddenly turned out to be cheerless & frigid... it was a shocked... however, I really would like to know what is going on??...... tell me please.

Too much.... just too much stuff... covering me up like a raging sea... O Lord, I need Your hand~

When somebody said bad words about somebody you really care or trust... & gave an unnecessary advise, and I might think it like a bullshit at all, it was really just not a funny thing... As if my trust was not that much..... then, my soul, my mind & my body would be in a very troublesome circumstance. Hey Buddy, I don't care what other people said about you the bad things..., but I trust you, you're trusted, always.
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A true Friendship & relationship are so precious & important, it is worthwhile to treasure forever, it's not a game.


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我拥有我自己的信念，你想破坏它？门都没﹗

" 我拥有我自己的信念，你想破坏它？门都没! "

This is a very strong self belief. I read it from somebody's blog. Thanks God! It did encourage me while I was reading it. I can imagine that a man can be a very very strong person if he/she wants to be. So amazing, God, You are so amazing! Because You created man since the beginning of the world.

Mission Month, well, I think all the topics to be preached in this month shall be related to mission works. The topic for this morning was "The Parable of the Dishonest Steward" (Luke 16:1-13). It was preached by Rev. Dr. Philips Koh, though I don't know him, but the way he preached, I was able to see that he was filled by the power of God/Holy Spirit. I admitted that I was apathetically to hear of the preaching. But somehow, God reminded me in other thing, "Prayer", do I really pray to God earnestly about my demands? If I said, God will make a way, then, I should put more efforts in my prayers. Amen!!

Undignified Worship Concert with Grace Methodist Church, Singapore, will be held on 18th of October, it crashes with one of the event that organized by the company. well, well, well, I think this is the best excuse I don't join it. Thanks God!

Red Bomb!! I am invited to attend an old friend's wedding dinner next month..... wah...wah... Congratulation!! Love Forever~ It is not easy to find a soul mate, (usually we may meet someone we love, indeed, but at last she rejects the way you are not able to comprehend... sometimes, love is just too complicated if one part turn to other way alone & silently......) both MUST treasure that relationship, and go on to invest the best to it. Forever Love!! Mars & Venus Together Forever!

Silence... means you need to have some space.?! It could be due to busyness of life....... etcs... take care.

Surprise...

I was waking up very early this few days, I guess I don't need to set alarm clock anymore, haha... but do I dare to say that I don't need it anymore? haha... no, I still need it, and I believe that tomorrow is a better day. It's hope always. ^^

If I say, my thought is a bit complicated recently, then, what is in my mind? Beautiful things.. hope, delightful & sweet memory & experience... happiness... all these must chase away those rubbish satellite that send negative signals to me.
Yeah! like a lyric of a song, "the victory is WON." God is my help, my rock.

Tired, looked like something sucked up my mind, I gotta do exercise, after coming home, I went down to swim, yeah.. Good! Though there were some other people built up their tent and enjoyed their barbecue at the side of the pool, but as for me, I did enjoy myself as a swimmer as well in the pool. ^^

I'm very glad, and being so touched... it soothed my heart... silently I didn't know what to say... but very moved...
"送你一座海島﹐在你失意時停靠
送你一個港灣﹐在你疲倦時躲浪
送你一對翅膀﹐在你安逸時飛翔
送你一份快樂﹐在你傷懷時一笑
愿你快樂沒煩惱^^"
Buddy... thanks a lot for the SMS tonight... it was really a surprise, & it has meant so much to me. ^^

Uncertainty + Patience + Concerns + Love (Hope&Faith)

Is this the one that will soon be coming on......? .... is it? not sure. but observing & waiting... Who has invented the car that provide the people convenience? Thank you, Henry Ford.

What is reality? Reality is not a dream, a dream is something that you still have not achieved yet. I'm still very clear in mind, the day I listened to a sermon on the internet, one pastor claimed that a dream car is a car which we cannot afford for it, but when we can afford to buy it, then, it shall be called, a real car. Haha... it's really make sense. I Agreed.

When we too care about something, it may bring a negative result that make others feel irritating, ... ... anyway, what is too care? then, what is too aggressive? ... Perhaps, this is how we require to gain the wisdom to learn how to deal with others in a comfort and gentle manner. If we say, "We're a learner." Then, one thing should be in mind, that we will somewhat make a mistake or more than a mistake in the process of learning. But just try the best practice to minimize the possibility of mistake that may happen to the lowest level. Cheer up! Do not be too concentrate in one matter only for a long long time, otherwise, it will drive you crazy and crazy. be careful la...haha...

In fact, I was about to go to swimming tonight, but rains. No choice, stayed back at home. I ate Hokkien Mee tonight, tasted good. okay, though it's not my favorite.
It's glad, thanks for the fruit tonight, friend. One plate is considered a lot to me, but I can finish it, actually it wasn't that much. haha... anyway, I don't know what it's called in English. Smaller than pear... my mom called it "shui mong" in Hakka. haha... Good taste, not so sweet.

Sleepless..... I've slightly headache today...