To whom I belong? GOD.

Another month will soon say goodbye to me. Reality is something that we are unable to change. Let's welcome the coming August with Faith, Hope & Love. ... The time on earth is "plus", and the day of Jesus' returning is "subtract", which means that, every thing on earth will cease one day in the future; And the day of God will last forever. So as His children who have been saved by the blood of His only son-Jesus Christ. I've a home above in heaven, God makes the most beautiful and wonderful place for me.

"Whenever you feel unimportant, unloved, or insecure, remember to whom you belong."
- the purpose driven life

The words are so encouraging... this very situation could happen to us when there was a big impact in our life somewhere we really did not expect to, and yet it was the best hour that the Lord trained us, our relationship with the most highest Lord would be growing closer and closer.
"Remember to whom you belong" , it's really a very good reminder, knowing our identity is so important, but I think that it's not enough, because it should attached with FAITH, believe that I'm a lovely child of God is a MUST. And then, followed by the action we take, it should be shown and reflected in our daily life. That's the way we Glorify Him.

Sleepless.... it's a suffering

Sleepless, Restless.... almost kill me...
Embarrassing... another night I was unable to sleep well... damn it, where did all these mosquitoes come from? I managed to kill two ... waking up in the midst of my sleep was really a suffering, so itching on my leg, my foot, and my hands...... slowly and slowly after applying the "oil", then only I felt better..... and slowly and slowly I fell into sleep.

Lack of sleep, feeling not good, my eyes very tired..... so as my body. Anyway, I was able to stay with it, God is my strength. I started having interest in the books of philosophy, glanced over the book, and I found it was interesting... we might be able to gain benefits from other people's perceptions... and when it is reflecting to what is happening in today's life, it will normally catch up my heart to go on the reading......

Anyway, I just think that, usually most of the people today are unaware of what are really happening in this world, the meaning of life, we all are very busy... and some people doing their observation so well, they comprehend the deeper understanding happen around them...... and they write it out, and tell of it. It could be the truth, the positive behaviour, the contradiction of man, the guilty of man... and etcs. I just hope all these will bring advantages to the readers, the society, and have introspection of life to the public.

Well, it was so good, thanks a lot to one of my friend tonight... thanks for all the useful ideas and suggestions given to me on behalf of my personal development of my career. At least I have better understanding and a clearer viewpoint now. Thanks God!!

Real worship is rooted in the Word

ermm... oh..ya... 2 days, were absolutely not an easy days for me. Restless!! Even though I went to bed quite early last night... but I failed to fall sleep as a normal timing as I could. Damn it! I could really felt that I was very tired... but when I laid down on bed... and this happened... the temperature in the room was a little bit higher. I tossed about in my sleep for quite some time. It was a painful experience. And one thing I worried about, my eye bags was getting deeper... eer... ugly... anyway, the worst thing was, my strength almost used up, I felt very tired, I wasn't in a good condition today, I could sense that I was easy to have emotional response when things went wrong. However, it was fine, because it was under control, God is with me all day long. I thought I was unable to go to work today, but it didn't happen. Thank God for bringing me through the whole day.


"Real worship is rooted in the Word." (the purpose driven life)

I just think that my worship center should always focus to Jesus, my God. But sometimes, we might be quite easy to get lost in our "real worship center" without notice, there are a lot traps being set openly and in a hidden way, a lot of temptations around in this materialism world.
Be alert! spotting on God's mighty words.
We need Him all the way, we need Him all the time.

It is not easy to be a mother or a father

I didn't take taxi to church this morning, but by bus. Okay, I saved up half price of the fare in which I usually paid to the taxi driver. But I was late. It was okay, I still able to join the praise & worship session. O God, I just think that today's message was not suited to me as a single person, but it was focused to those who are a parent.

"Shaping Your Child's Will" (Proverbs 15:13, 17:22, 13:24, 22:15, 3:11-2)

As usual, humbly I learned to listen to the message. Perhaps some days in the future, it would be my good references and helpful words. Anyway, give thanks to God! And I know that to educate a child isn't a easy job, and to raise up a child from a baby to adult is really a very great job. ...... Now in my thought, always I will say that my mom and my father are both very great mother and great father!! Thank you to my mom and dad.

This made me recalled back my memory about the TV Program-Amazing Race, one of the team, Ron (father) and Christina (daughter) were successfully won the 2nd place, though they failed to achieve the 1st place, but their relationship between father and daughter was growing better from a chapter to another chapter, all these can be seen in the program, it really made me glad to see and I really appreciated their relationship growing closer and closer. It was so warm and so touch!!

Body Exercise shouldn't be stopped. Therefore I continued to carry on my jogging tonight after coming back from work, it was good, so hot my body and sweating after 3 rounds of jogging, I think my fat was burning out... haha... ... Yeah! It's good!

God's Tender Mercy

It was nice and so good to stand at the balcony tonight, I just wanted to relax myself... and while I was viewing at the night scene there, I was eating my red apple too. The winds were blowing tenderly, it cooled down the hot temperature throughout the day, and it made me feeling so good. Something came across on my mind... it's okay! No worries... a little tiny water was dropping down on my hand, it was started to rain. However, the atmosphere around was just fine to me. I hoped to stay for long, but I couldn't, otherwise my friend(s) might have wondered if they saw me there. haha... When I am depressed, I have God's consolation, softly He always try to comfort me, and restore me.

It was so glad to see the top 4 in the dance roadshow this afternoon, wow, danced so well. I couldn't stay for any longer because I needed to go back to work after my lunch time, but I've already satisfied, because I've already seen their dances respectively on stage. All the best for 4 of you at the final round.

New Sunday is coming, God, bless Your church. Revive Your People.

We Praise to Do Good.

Every day is a war, what is the war? Spiritual war, thinking war. Don't you feel the same?... And yet, every day is a grace. It is granted by God unconditionally. We have nose to breathe, the earth still fills with oxygen, we are survived! As we live, we should give thanks to God.

We don't praise God to feel good, but to do good.
-The Purpose Driven Life.

I like this words very much, of course, we will feel good when we praise God, it is very good. But the main reason is to "do good". This is how we response to His loving kindness.

I read a self-help book this afternoon, it was talking about habit, and when I skipped to the section of defining the bad habits, there was one of the classification reminded me, it was liked a knock hit on my head.
"Snooze the alarm clock several times in the morning before wake up from bed."
O God! This is bad habit. It was like a fresh water showering me. Then, only I realized, and I've decided to renew this. Get a change! Work it out. Yeah!

God is Good

There would be a fear when there is an uncertainty. God doesn't make it to bring confusion to me, I thank you to my God, He speaks to me when I am miserable, and don't know what to do. O Lord, You open my eyes, and give me strength. You are always my instant help. No one, but You.

Long time I didn't chat on msn with my friend, it was warm, and very happy to talk with friend tonight. Friendship is so precious! No man is an island, we cannot live without God, but some friends are so important to us. They are kind, honest, trustworthy and good listener.

Question to Consider:
What area of my life am I holding back from God?

Trusting God completely

Welcoming the new morning's coming. Woke up in the morning wasn't a good condition for me, I didn't sleep well last night... I was so hungry, and it aroused me from my dream, O God! .... :-( it has already been a long time I did not experience this. I couldn't stay for it. So I got up from bed and took some raisins, taste sweet in my mouth and it neutralized my hungriness. haha... it looked like funny, but pitiful actually. ...

Sleepless... I wasn't in a good condition today, I really dislike the problems I am currently struggling with in my career, I really really hope that I am able to get out of it now!! If only God allows it to happen. But I know that there is always a right time in which God is holding now. With faith, I should continue to put my trust on His righteousness. Anyway, whatever, everything is under His control, it is safe in His hands. When fearful thoughts come to attack me, and God, let Your powerful words be my shield, clothed me with Your love and courages. Grants me a peaceful mind, and May the power of Holy Spirit keeps me strong and strong. O Mighty God, I praise You.

"Trusting God completely means having faith that He knows what is best for your life."

- taken from the book of the purpose driven life.

We don't worship to please ourselves.

Thanks God! Day off! :-)
Today was a bit special to me. I swam 5 rounds in the morning pool after woke up from bed. Yeah!! And yesterday I jogged for 3 rounds after came back from work. Wow... I just think that if I continue to exercise my body every day, perhaps my body will become more healthier than before.

Normally, if there is nothing special, I prefer to stay at home to do my own stuff, it can be reading, cleaning, singing, guitar, self-studying...& some other possible matters. However, I went out this afternoon, I bought a book, namely Power Prayers to Start Your Day-Revitalize Your Prayer Life. In fact, I was thinking about the 365 days devotional book, classic edition. I hope to read something new at my routines to work and home. But at last I decided to buy the power prayers to start your day. I just hope re-establish my spiritual life, perhaps I need to start from "prayer", that was why God led me to buy this book. Well, I've gone through a little of it. Good!! May God bless my reading and learning.

Tonight my mood was becoming unstable & down... there was no other way better than silent myself down by listening to the song of God, singing to God, reading helpful words, for instances, Christian books, bible.

I summarized a conclusion below after I read the chapter of planned for God's pleasure in the book of purpose driven life tonight,

"We don't worship to please ourselves, but to bring glory & pleasure to our Creator."

It mentioned a lot about "worship", but I've got more attention on this. Sometimes we might be very moving by the songs we sang... but our motive is to bring glory & pleasure to God, O Lord, please correct our wrong behaviour of worship.

Poor in spirit

"Poor In Spirit, Rich, In God's Kingdom", (Matthew 5:3)
It is one of the 8 blessings of God. I got what Pastor tried to say this morning. But I just don't know how to express it comprehensively. Perhaps I didn't really get the full picture, but at least I comprehended the message. I just think that if spirit is rich, then people needs God's word no more. They don't have to seek for God anymore, since they are rich. However, they somehow need to understand that today whatsoever they have are granted by God. If they are rich, they would never know how to give thank to God. For instance, not even say thank you for meal. But exactly what is mean by rich in spirit? Do they feel contented in spirit even when they are rich? Does money buy them everything they want? However, we all know that money can't buy a family, money can't buy a love one, money can't buy a faithful heart!... Only the love of God can satisfy a poor spirit, God's love is amazing, & very wonderful.

It was right that Pastor said, poor in spirit stops you becoming proud. Blessed are those who are poor in spirit, for their is the kingdom of God. Money cannot last forever, but the kingdom of God, which is the resident of heavenly place.

It was so glad to call my parent tonight, but they were in a wedding dinner, not convenient to talk. Then, I called my sister, have good conversation. Thank God!

Life is Brief

It was so glad to see Jonathan Koh this afternoon, I greeted him, he was surprised, and shook hand with me, it was glad, he said, he can't remember my name, what's my name? It's okay, at least he remembered me in mind, but didn't know my name. He told me he was invited to be one of the judges for the songwriting competition tonight at xx church, (then, I only realized the announcement in the church bulletin this week) he invited me to go tonight, told me which church, asked me whether I know how to go or not....... I said, ya, I know. Haha... normally I know where it is, it is the church that I go every Sunday. But since I attend the English service, so, I don't get any much more detail information about it. By the way, due to certain reasons, I didn't go. Sorry. :-(

Life is brief, I must know my identity well... it was so good to read the book of purpose driven life. It did refresh my soul...Abba Father, Holy Spirit, thank you. Oh Lord, You are with me. You are wonderful.

Question to consider

Question to Consider:

Since I was made to last forever, what is the one thing I should stop doing and the one thing I should start doing today?

-taken from The Purpose driven life.

What is the thing that I want to change the most at this stage? The answer is undoubtedly more than one. God knows, and I myself know as well. If I still didn't realize, O Lord, Please open up my eyes right away! So that I can see the focus point rightly. I don't want to keep myself in a situation that would never edify and bring me growing progressively. Family, Spiritual life, Church Service, Church activities, Career, fellowship... O God! Have your mercy and love on me. Holy Spirit, keeps me strong. Wonderful God... You're wonderful... Stretches out Your powerful arm, helps me!

Fire the weapon of prayer! Be strong, Have as many passion as I can to strike for the good fight(s), stand firm on the right position, keep my eyes right to the focus target, Have faith, trust God!! Do Not at some time, but anytime, anywhere, whatever, Trust Him, and again, Remember, Trust Him with Faith & Prayer, always.

Trust The LORD!

Just another morning to start with. However, it passed so fast. One day, two days, three days, one week, two weeks... one month... two months... three months... It really scared me, as I'm getting older and older gradually. And I'm currently still facing my problems... I really hope to jump out of the circle surrounded as soon as possible.
Can I say, Purpose generates Hope, Hope establishes Patience, and Patience requires Faith. And Faith relies on trusting the reality of the existence of God.? make sense?

Thanks to God! Thanks to Hoy Spirit for reminding me from the daily mistakes made. O Lord, please re-correct me, restore my soul, grant me a peaceful mind and wisdom to deal with my daily work.

The opposition leader who was arrested yesterday was released this morning. May God preserves everything, and have control over the political movements of the country. God bless.

We want Peace and Justice.

It was raining in the morning while I was ready to go out to work. Weather wasn't good, and my umbrella also having a problem... oh God... It seems that now is really hard to get a very good quality umbrella. :-(

After lunch, suppose I was on the queue to wait for the calling of my number to pay for my bill. However, the difference was very high, it might have kept me waiting so long, so I decided to go to the Christian Bookstore nearby to spend some time there. I found some interesting books there, mostly were about the daily devotional, I felt like to buy, but instead of over-spending my monthly budget, I kept my desire in a hold, which meant I would take into consideration "next times". I left the store with a sweet smile exchange with the promoter, in my heart I said, sorry I didn't buy anything. Next times la. hahah... but but but... when I went back to check the queue, my number has passed... no way to pay except I'm going to take a new number again... so I decided to go, because the time to work has only few more minutes to come.

After work, I was on my way walking to the train station as usual. However, I saw 2 roads far in front of me were blocked by the Polices, all kinds of vehicle weren't allowed to use that ways, there were a lot of people, including many police officers and polices, as well as reporters gathering in within the surrounding areas. Oh God! what was happening? Demonstration? ... But somehow I also needed to go through that road to the train station, when I was going through, the atmosphere wasn't bad, which was under control... but all the people were facing to one direction... the building- Head quarter of Police.

Once I read the night newspaper tonight, then, only I knew what was happened! The opposition leader xxx was arrested this afternoon for questioning about a xxx case. Is this a political issue? People will always say, it's too complicated to talk about politics...... Let God judges and control, may God prevents any possible happenings that might bring no harmony and no peace to the society to be happened. O Lord, I ask for your mercy and love to the country and her nations.

Are we secure?

What had I dreamed about last night? hmm... I don't need to bother about it. I should put my focus in my real life. Every day seems to be so short... but it is 24 hours a day as normal. Busyness shouldn't cover us like a flood, but happiness. Isn't it?

Time is passing by so quickly, it will never turn back to you. Hope is future, living is present, haha... What theory is this? make sense? Do I talk about something to be odd? ......

A friend has worked out a brief proposal of their new launched financial planning product for me. Sometimes we may think that 5 years, 10 years... are very long period of day to wait for, however, in a view of different perception, actually it is very short. For the past few years experiences, it was firmed to prove that time passes by so fast, that we even cannot hold for any second.

And it recalls my memory, "Man proposes, God disposes."

Time isn't enough.

Day off!! Feeling so Good!!

I guess I did a lot of things today. However, sometimes I even couldn't remember what I've done in a day. Why am I becoming so forgetful already sometimes? I hope it was just sometimes only. I did some housekeeping work in the kitchen this afternoon, I used to clean and tidy up the kitchen all the time, and I've been monitoring this since the beginning of the year, I couldn't understand one thing, why my house-mates who are always cooked are all lazy to conduct the work of cleaning. Even though I've asked before to do so after cooking, but still the kitchen was either left unclean or lousily cleaned, and the kitchen still looked dirty. Oh ya, I shouldn't complain here, I've found a way to cope with it, I will continue to do the cleaning humbly, hopefully this can move their hearts, and one day they will have the initiative to clean up the kitchen fully without keeping it oily or still dirty, and I know for sure, definitely God will reward me in fair. Isn't it? Thanks God!

Anyway, I've got the enjoyment as well, because I enjoyed standing in the kitchen I cleaned. I really like that feeling of cleanness and tidiness. Yeah!!

I went out for bill payment this afternoon, the winds blew so strong, rain fell down﹐without using umbrella, I was exposed to the rain, oh no, headache a little, and thanks God! I was fine before long. I went home after shopped with some stuff.

Today I felt relax, but busy. I still didn't get the enjoyment of the day fully? Some more things need to do, reading & etcs. But time isn't enough. Do I have to be so busy all the time? I don't think so. Plan well, plan well. Ya, I need to plan well!!

Do we desperately want to be different?

Thanks God! No oversleep. I was able to attend the church service this morning. Surprisingly today was the baptism and membership transfer day. There were 16 people baptized and 5 transferred their membership to the church. Hallelujah!! To God be the Glory.

"Becoming Nothing."

This was the message of this morning, when I first read this message in the bulletin, I really couldn't get it. But when I referred to Philippians 2:5-8, I almost got it.

Pastor began with the question below,

"How to love other without sacrificing who we are?"

pondering......

I do agree the below messages:

" We are a culture of people who still don't know ourselves.

We don't like who we are.

We desperately want to be different. "

The reason is, we are not confident of our identity.

To be sure, our identiy are rooted in Him (God).

Pastor questioned again,

"Isn't it hypocritical to act as someone else?"

It's true.

Lastly, Pastor asked again, "How do we go to understand people?"

Answer: WE GO ALL THE WAY.

Final Question: Are you still willing to go all the way like Jesus to love other?

This is a challenge, isn't it?

We maybe very familiar to sing of the song, All The Way My Saviour Leads Me.

However, we still need to learn about it. Merciful God please guide us, and bless us.

Thanks God! I jogged for 2 rounds and walked for 1 round tonight. Exercise is good for health. Yeah!

Thank you to my faithful God

It was not easy to see through a person, however, time can reveal the ugliness of a person. I would never believe that someone who is to be well-received in the office dare to do something behind that is to hurt others in order to fight for better reviews in attempting to get himself promotion until I received the forwarding email of his complaints to my superior, and to make things worse, he was also cc the complained emails to the top management to catch for their attention. How embarrassing this is!! He is from another department. That is our department matter. This is not his job, this is my job, why should he silently reported to my superior and cc the email to top management. In fact, I'm currently monitoring and handling that issues, and are working well in coordinating with my superior concerning that matter, but why was this person doing such a digusting work!! He really showed no respect to me, I was very disappointed to what he has done. One of my Christian colleague also told me this wasn't the first times he did that way. But I appreciated to my superior, if she hadn't forwarded that email to me, I wouldn't never know the true. Office Politics, office battle, so ugly!! O Lord, thank you for taking care of me, I know you are preserving me at all time, please continue to show Your mercy and love. I ask for Your wisdom and mercy, so that I am wise enough to cope with everyday trials, and peacefully walk on every day journey.

Thanks God! It was so glad that I finally can return the PDA to my brother in Lord tonight, anyway, I've tried my best to solve the problem, and it was good to gather and have a "drink"(not a heavy beverage, we drink simple drink) together tonight. God bless!!

Life Lesson

It is the Lord who hold the every moment I walk. God is so real, He is the easy approachable God. His blessings never cease, and His mercies are new every morning.

Lunched with a friend this afternoon, he is one of my brother in Christ's elder brother, long time he has not been calling me. However, I'd always know about his motives, introducing financial scheme/product, and it was just ok to me as we're too a Christian, we're friend, we come from the same hometown. But, he always failed to make the deal. haha... therefore, I won't mention about the main conversation topic-the deal. But this times, it was something about "relationship", He has just got a new born baby girl few months ago, it was so good and glad to hear about that, however, he told me that after the born of their baby, her wife and he has started less conversation, and topic. And since then, the topic was usually all about their baby girl. Is this good or bad? I've no idea, but I think it'd be fine as long as they put God as their center focus. And we're always need to learn about how to handle/manage the new thing, new environment, new situation, new challenges... that we're now facing. May God continue to bless their marriage to be more beautiful with the new born baby. Cheer!


"If we wanted to change the situation, we first had to change ourselves. And to change ourselves effectively, we first had to change our perceptions."
- taken from the book of The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People: Powerful lessons in Personal Change, Stephen R. Covey.

I like the above mentioned when I read it tonight. Let's learn about it.

Be Strong

Life was so busy, covered me up like a big ocean, couldn't it stand far far away from me? Would all the surrounding stuff bring me any benefit? Of course, not all. But do I need to re-figure out its value in a way that I am free from it? Give a breathe!!

People feels vulnerable in their workplace, they are afraid of losing their job and earnings. So many times, they just do whatever tasks that have been assigned to them by the management/company, even though the task is an unbelievable and unreasonable requested new policy. They even have the right not to conduct that job under the protection of the law; they don't have to do that. However, because of the fear and insecurity of life, they just surrender and compromise to it. This is so true, it does happen in real life, and a very obvious example can be seen in my workplace, it's very sad to talk about this, but I'm thankful to God as I'm not afraid of taking the advantage of the right being as an employee should have and enjoy. Whenever it is, wherever I be, I'm protected and feel safe under His mighty hands, Hallelujah!!

We cannot be so weak, or else we will lose our way and right.

What Will Jesus Do?

Did not feel like to wake myself up this morning. I would rather continue to sleep than went out to work. It has been a long time I didn't get this sort of feeling. haha... I wasn't lazy, but tired. And of course, I went out to work this morning.

I received a notice letter from a bank last week, it was telling me that I was selected as a potential finalist to win up to RMxxxxxx in xxx magazine super contest, and within the next few days I would have received the contest invitation documents. And indeed, I've got all the relevant documents today. A lots of beneficial offers were to convince me. "Are this reliable? Can I trust them?" It was the question firstly came up on my mind, however, they all are renowned local bank and international magazine supplier. I think it is still can be trusted, it shouldn't be a fraud. All I need to do, is just say yes to the subscription, and send back all the required documents to them within the valid period of days. However, am I going to say "yes" to the offers? I just think that when it is viewed from another aspect of perspectives, it'll indirectly lead me into a gambling-kind game. Even though it is a contest, I pay for the subscription, and I'm qualified for the contest with the opportunity to win big cash, big prize or some other attractive gifts. Well, normally how people deals with this? I think that, mostly, people will use their own view to deal with it. But, what will Jesus do?

Which one should come to first?

"God doesn't play dice." - Albert Einstein
I read this in the book of the purpose driven life. Though I don't know who is Albert Einstein, but, I totally agree his saying. God doesn't play a dice in order to tell your destiny. He knows us very well, He can tell of every single details of our life, He plans well our life... like what has been mentioned in the book, I am not an accident.

Well, I think I've purchased too many reading materials... I've got to figure out a good idea to finish them all. That's the priority issue. Which one shall put to first? Which one should put to second...third...? Which one shall come together with the rest? Resources are overflowing... but time and energy are restricted. Oh ya, I've got to work the schedule out. O Lord, please remember this.

I received a call tonight, it was my brother in Lord, and it was about his wedding dinner, I am invited! haha... He has told me before about this "Red Bomb" attack. And now the time is near. He is going to bomb me, the invitation card will soon be sent out. Congratulation! Bro!

Choices

Day off. I long for today's coming. Because I want to take rest. Don't want to bother with my work anymore. That's it! However, a lot of incoming calls from the office all day. It just made me felt so embarrassing. All those calls would only make me felt tension. Damn!! Can't you all do me a favour?

Anyway, I was satisfied with what I've done today. It was okay! Thanks God! It's just the matter of time, you know what, 24 hours a day is somewhat not enough for me to do more things, who says God is not fair, and yet He gives everyone 24 hours a day. Well, this is something that we need to manage our time wisely.

There was a small gathering today, 4 of us secondary schoolmates joined by one's girlfriend were having our dinner in a standardized Chinese restaurant, the meals we ordered taste good! Hmm... well, we really have not been meeting up for a long long time. It was so glad to see each other, though I've thought of not joining, but eventually I still joined them, as I hope to see them. One is married, one is in dating stage, one will be getting marry soon & one, me..... still single. They've got their own achievements, and me, I have my own targets to accomplish as well...
Man will become older and older... since time is running on each and every day. If we are not smart enough, we'll be left behind. And one day, we all will have to face the ending line of life. Life is just like that? Then, What is the purpose driven life? Have God told you lately that what is the purpose driven life?
Well, I've found the answer.

Sleeplessness caused Oversleeping

Sleepless... tossed about in my sleep all night... so pity... I hate this to be happened, but it did happen to me. O my God, the alarm clock wasn't on, I set it last night, but I forgot to turn it on. I overslept myself(but I still didn't have enough rest), it was late... and I was unable to catch up with the Sunday Service, I didn't attend the church service this morning. I myself very disappointed... but I can't do anything... by the way, blaming myself is useless. Pray that it would never happen again.

Thanks God! I went down for jogging tonight after coming back from work. I have to do exercise, it is for my health advantage. OK, two rounds I jogged. It's fine. Keep on the efforts!!

Do I over protect myself?

Well, I think I am really very fond of reading, do I? I bought a book and a magazine after work tonight. It's the sales season now, and the sales has just started, I've got 15% off the price for that book. I've been knowing this book in either English version or translated Chinese version for more than a year, however, as the normal price is high, so it takes me a long time to consider the purchase, and it was finally ended up tonight. I've got it, "The 7 habits of highly effective people, Stephen R. Covey". Well, well, well, it's good! I think I like to read self help book.

Do mercy stand far away from us? There was a old lady sat beside me this morning, normally I came to sit the empty seat beside her, and was waiting for the train. At that time, she was talking with a young working girl beside her. In fact, it was nothing to do with me that what has she said to her, but the girl seemed like didn't want to bother her with much more words. And then, she changed her direction to left, which was my side, and began an attempt to chat with me. However, as usual I don't like to talk to a stranger. I just gave my nod to her to show that I got her words. Though I showed no interest to bother her, I still answered her questions, and listened to her too, but I didn't fully pay attention to her, the way she talked and acted, was a little bit like a mental person, or a beggar(a fraud)... I'm very sorry to say this... but I did pay my respect to her, while I was eating, I was also listening to her, she said her difficult situation and problems, talked like a friend, I felt sympathy to her, I prayed for her inside my heart. But I also beware of her motives, I don't know who is she, where is she come from,... should I trust what she said wholly, not all. But at least I didn't reject to response to her words, she asked for coins change, and I also did her favor willingly. ... I admitted to my sympathy to her, but I also built-up a wall in between she and I to protect myself. Is this the contradiction of man? We say, we want to spread love, but our love is so little.

Honor You, Lord.

When we have been so busy and tired for quite some times, perhaps, we need to do something to recharge back our energy and power. I am not talking about something that is to be so particular, or odd. But I am just trying to say about "exercise", I think I've been a long time didn't do exercise for my body. It was so pity. I just can't imagine... how can this be? ... Well, it reminded me to do exercise when I saw my house-mate coming back from swimming tonight. ... and I am thinking to do pilate, because I can do it at home.

I watch the dancing competition live show on TV every week recently, however, there will be two people being sent home every week, which is mean that they're defeated. I like to see the dances competition show, I think that dancing is so interesting, and people really can have fun, and it involves several kinds of dance, this is very challenging, though we're staying in a multi-racial country, we've different culture among the nations, but still we need to learn about it in order to do the great dance. And it is so tension to hear the judgers' comments and nervously wait for the result, I think it won't be easy, but if you're confident... you've got the talent, you do very well, so as doing very good coordination with your partner, and the most important thing is, there are many people supporting you, you've got a lot of supporters, they vote for you... then, you will win the prize.

It was so lovely, I enjoyed listening to the gospel music song, I sang, I prayed, I worshiped... my Lord, my God, He comforted me. Thanks God!

tired

Continuously two nights, I was suffering from the bitting of the mosquitoes, 1st night 2, 2nd night 2 as well. So bad!!! I wasn't in a good condition for this two days I think. But thanks God! He brought me through.

Life is busy now, but life shouldn't short of rest. And sometimes, when we're very tired, we may have no mood to do some more things. ... We may rather take rest than work on our tasks.

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Man proposes, God disposes.

Day off. Thanks God! Good day.
I've got enough rest I think. As usual I stayed at home, but this times I decided not to prison myself at home... somehow I've got to free myself out of the house... this is to ease my mind, relax myself from everyday busy work, oh ya, I need to release myself from the stress I face. So I went out for shopping. I shopped for the necessities, then I found the price of several products have been raised. And one of the promoter told me the item I purchased will soon be marked-up. Indeed, the raise of the price of fuel last month has a great influence to the market of the country. It seems that many things have raised its price, and more will be adjusted soon. And as usual, people will be questioning, " Why our salary still has no increment? " Because it seems that everything is raising up their costs.

Since life has become more not easy, while I was browsing in the shopping centre there, I was reminding myself to spend carefully and wisely. Money is not easy to earn, but we can spend the monthly earning cash swiftly. This is something that we cannot deny. Thanks God! I felt good with my shopping this afternoon.

After shower, turned on the music, standing on the balcony, tossed my head to the sky, seeing the nature of sky, floating clouds, and the winds was blowing gently, and all this have made me feeling so good, and so relax. It was almost close to the hour of sunset. I really love that feelings. It was so enjoyable!

Man proposes, God disposes.
I found this tonight on the internet dictionary, I totally agree to it. As we can propose and plan many things for ourself, but at last, God will dispose as accord to His will and make all things working well in their own ways. Praise You God! Pray that we will surrender in the way You've designed for us.